by Cecilia Gray
Publisher: Twist Literary (Oct 8, 2013)
Genre: Contemporary, Young Adult
Source: Free book from publisher for honest review
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Rating: ★★★☆☆ (3 stars)
Vivianne Benthurst is a good friend—loyal, caring, and protective to a fault. Especially when it comes to her roommate, Audriana. That’s why she’ll do whatever it takes to keep Audriana away from Dane, the campus burnout. Truly, that’s the only reason. It’s not like she’s jealous. Take one look at Vivianne’s gorgeous, rowing captain boyfriend and you’ll know he has everything necessary to keep her satisfied.
Now Audi is in danger of being ousted from Colebrook, and Vivianne looks to her good friend Markham for help. But when it becomes clear that it is the loathsome Dane who actually holds the key to saving Audriana, will Vivianne be willing to step aside? Or will she be forced to face the real reason she can’t let Dane and Audi be together?
At A Glance
This book was well done but it left me sad and depressed.
Vivianne will do anything for her best friend Audriana. Viv is either madly in love or extremely infatuated with Audri and she thinks she knows what’s best for Audri. She fights tooth and nail to keep Audri away from the bad influence of the druggy Dane. Viv also helps Audri raise money to keep her horse Quix. But no matter what Viv does, Audri only sees her as a friend.
It’s so easy to both hate and feel compassion for Viv. She is not a perfect person. She has manipulative tendencies and is very rude. But her love for Audri is evident. You want Viv to get her happy ending, but it’s obvious Audri is not gay, no matter how much Viv wants it to be so.
I was surprised by the lengths Viv went to impress and help Audri. Even if her motives were selfish, she was a very good friend to Audri. And, to be honest, Dane was bad news. I would tell my friend to stay clear of him too.
I thought Audri was a sweet girl, but I think how she handled Viv’s somewhat confession of her feelings was juvenile and rude. You just don’t do that to a friend. But it did cause great drama.
Nothing was truly wrong with this book, I just left it with a bad feeling in my stomach. None of the characters were that lovable, but even so, I felt like the “bad guys” won and the ones we rooted for got crushed. I just think I wasn’t ready for such a depressing book.
We have a messed up boy/girl relationship, a fake/cover boy/girl relationship, and a girl/girl friendship in which one girl wants more and the other does not. Very complicated and very intriguing. The lengths these characters went for love and infatuation was pretty amazing. But don’t expect a happy ending.
We get sexual situations that can be considered risqué for a YA audience.
To be honest, I wouldn’t recommend this novella to many people. I think it’s best to read the whole series to really get the right effect from this book. It was good and well written. I just found the whole concept and outcome depressing. I recommend the series as whole though.
Vivianne wanted love. She wanted to be loved and to give it in return. She wanted someone to find her truly worthy of holding and cherishing.
“I see her every day, hurting. Because of her family, because of Quix, because of Dane and when I see her hurting it hurts me, too and I have to fix it, Markham. I have to.” Vivianne hiccuped in gulps of air and tried to catch her breath. “You don’t know what it’s like.”